No Direction Home
Since I’ve written last we’ve let an offer on a house expire and we’ve learned we can’t afford our dream house and I’ve been muttering, “Lord, help my unbelief” constantly!
Carter, my 4 year old, said when looking at one home, “I wonder if this is the house God has in mind for us?” He smiled as he said it and my heart was full, but we’re no closer to a home today than when we started the process. When, exactly, will we find the house we’re to call home? I feel physically ill just thinking about renewing the process in 10 days when we return to our new city.
I’m sad people! And I’m praying for distraction so that I’ll quit orbiting my own mind with worry. I’m praying that the devil steers clear of me because I can feel the old temptation surging within me to wallow and languish in the mire of sadness mixed with anger.
Lord, help my unbelief! I know that you have something for us but could you lead us there quickly please? I don’t know which way is up in this process anymore. Where should we compromise? Where won’t we have to compromise? Keep me fixed on you Lord. I love you. Help my unbelief. Amen
